Really struggling to have enthusiasm for my uni course. I'm studying Biomedical Science and its interesting but its not what I've always wanted to do.

I always wanted to be a vet for as long as I can remember. Whenever I got asked what I wanted to do after school there was no hesitation. I was going to uni to study to be a vet. I did work experience in year 10 with our local vets and loved every minute which made me even more determined to do well at school at get the needed grades. Many teachers told me to lower my expectations because the grades were difficult to get and unis hard to get into. Then I did my work experience with the same practice in year 12 and had all my dreams crushed. I lasted 2 and a half days before my body gave up on me and I had to spend the next week and a half in bed. I couldn't cope with how physical the job was. Even today I still dream of being a vet and its hard having to admit to myself that its never going to happen.

That gave me a year to think of what else I wanted to do. When I went to look at universities I wanted to do forensic science. It really interested me and as my dads a fireman I was interested in going into fire investigation. Then everyone I spoke to told me not to study that as there were no jobs at the end of it as the course was too general and there were so many people studying it.

My GP suggested I look at Bangor uni as they have a brilliant disability support team (which they do). This is where the Biomedical science course caught my eye. It sounded really interesting and the course leader was lovely. I got the grades and ended up in Bangor. The course is really interesting and I love the theory side and the lectures. However, I hate the practicals. I struggle to use the fiddly equipment and even the I have a assistant in the lab as part of the course I have to be able to use everything. Also using the microscopes to look at all the different bacteria gives me a migrane. I also have no idea what job I would want to do after I graduate. I started the course with the intention of going into research so I could look at Ehlers Danlos syndrome, but now the thought of research makes me want to hide under my bed.

I've looked at different courses but there's nothing that sounds as interesting as the course I'm already doing and I do enjoy the lectures its just the practicals I hate. Unfortunately the pracs are one of the main parts of the course.